Being on my own.

So. . I'm not gonna write everything down what I did the last week. . that's gonna take me too long. 

I made it to my cycle tour in Roturoa! And I was the only one so I had my personal tourguide. Pretty funny. After that I went back to my hostel, I would stay there two nights. I was really tired from all the driving and sightseeing over the couple of days. So it was nice to be at one spot for more then one night.

I shared the room with three Brazilian guys and they asked if it was oke for me. . because I was the only girl. . Not a problem. In the evening I went to a bar but I wasn't really comfortable so I went to another one where they had life music. That was a bit better. Then the Brazilian guys came so they joined me and so I had someone to talk. That was even better! They have had a big day so they left after a few beers so I went to a club to dance. It wasn't the time yet for being on the dance floor so I sat down with a few other people. Coincidental they all worked there, but not that evening. Always good to get to now people behind the bar!

Brazilian people always get up early. . (well they did). . so I got out of my bed at 8am. . didn't had a lot of sleep. I had breakfast, did my blog and went for a walk. I should do a dinner + performance in the evening. A big Maori (locals) dinner + a dance and warrior performance (like the Haka --> rugby) but I changed that because I wanted to stay a day more and I could join the bbq at my hostel to get to know some people. It was really nice and then we went out with a few people. I got the boys a drink, they gave me one aswell last night and I didn't get anything for the girls. Because they were just drinking water.  . (that was free). I don't mind getting them a drink but I know that they wouldn't give me one back and just like the free drinks they get from boys. I don't like that and I don't wanna spend my money on that.

The next day I got up early again. . roommates. I spend my day on planning what I would do next. . Didn't had a clue. I knew that I wanted to do the Tongariro Crossing, but that was all.. Then I just decided to go surfing for a few days. That would be nice! So booked that.

Time for my dinner + performance. That was really nice! I like the cultural thing. They make a big dinner for you under the ground (takes four hours). They do a HAKA, when you've seen a NZ rugby team, they do a HAKA to scare there opponent and to give a sign of respect. They stick their tongs out a lot, like me! That was a really nice evening! I was back in the hostel at 11pm. Time for bed, I was really tired. I could hear the life music from around the corner and then I was awake. . at 11:30pm I decided to get up and have a look. I got back at 1am (could stay much longer but decided to go to bed. . I needed some sleep) and I was glad that I had went.

Those days were the first " quiet" days for me. Be at one place for a few nights and I needed that. I needed some rest. But then I felt uncomfortable an alone as well. I'm comfortable to be in a bar where I can dance and have a t-shirt on, I just don't care about other people then. But just sitting in a bar during the evening, alone, as a woman. Can really make me feel uncomfortable. Because what does a girl do in a bar all by herself. .?! And its not that people come and talk to you when you have a t-shirt on. Even when it's such an awesome t-shirt with TOUR DE ZILST on it. . I like my piece and quiet but I also like to be social. Some days I don't care and sometimes I can get really uncomfortable.

Those couple of days were not the best days. . and the thought that I could have been in Australia at the same time went through my head a couple of times. But Im not there so I should make the best of it here. I just talked to one of my big sisters and told her that those days are actually the most important days. I do a lot of self-reflection then. About how I feel and why, how I want that my life looks like, what I want to do, what happened the last years, how I think about myself. . etc etc. Lucky me. . I can call my boyfriend, even when I know that he's already in bed. And have a little chat.

Time to go towards Taupo to call the bus driver and ask if it was able to do the Tongariro crossing the next day (19 km walk, 6-8 hours).